The World of Angy Wong

The hormones must be running rampant in me as the littlest things have caused me to feel waves of illogical emotions in the past few days.

Case #1: My boyfriend and I had dinner at Banana Leaf on Friday night. I had been looking forward to a nice evening out for a while so I chose Banana Leaf because the last few times I went there, the food was sublime but it often took its time getting to my table. Thus, I thought it meant we would have a couple of hours to enjoy our evening out. For some reason our food came exceptionally fast despite us ordering the 7 course sampler meal. We were in and out of there within an hour and before it even registered in my mind, we were back at his place playing board games with his roommates. It wasn’t until I was already in bed that I felt quite despondent over the disappointment of my evening ending early. Normally, it wouldn’t have bugged me but perhaps all that hairspray I used while prettying myself up for the night seeped into my brain and made me feel excessively disconsolate over such a minor matter.

Case #2: Yesterday, in an attempt to make my boyfriend happy and also wanting to see some friends I haven’t seen in a while, I played Dungeons and Dragons for the first time. D&D is a game that makes Aaron and some of my dear friends ridiculously giddy. So, I thought I’d give it a try despite my initial reservations. The role-playing game requires me to act as if I was the character that I created, which means talking as if I was that person. I was already feeling nervous about the whole thing since I had no idea on how to simply “talk”. Unlike some of the other newbies who fell right into the game, it took me awhile to feel comfortable with role-playing. In all honesty, I didn’t think my character was significant nor did her comments matter. Just when I started getting a little more comfortable, my boyfriend’s roommate made one little comment that pretty much killed the game for me. Our party had met a person in town and my sweet boyfriend, who was trying to give me a chance to get more involved, suggested that my character converse with that person. His roommate however said, “Look, your bluff skills may be a 9 but mine is a 13 so I’ll do the talking around here.” For a game that I felt no particular interest in nor received much satisfaction from, that little comment made me feel like such crap. So, instead of attempting to become more active in the game, I decided that I would promptly leave in an hour and vow to not try it again, but I did kick some major centaurian ass before I left.

Case #3: I love radish cake and Teresa’s mom makes the best radish cake in the world – well, at least in my world. So, last night when I was over at Teresa’s place, her mom gave me some radish cake to take home. Despite being full from dinner, I was rather excited. She gave me a fairly big portion and I knew I could stretch it out over the span of two days. When I got home, I had a small piece for myself and stashed the rest of it in the fridge. This morning, I woke up excited to have some delicious pan-fried radish cake for breakfast (and yes, I know it’s probably not the healthiest thing). I searched for it in the fridge for about five minutes before I realized the worst had happened. On my way out the door to work, I asked my dad if he had seen the radish cake. He told me that he thought my mom had bought it a week ago even though she claimed she didn’t. Nonetheless, they thought it was going to go bad so they cooked it all late last night and ate it. I was livid because this isn’t the first time something like this happened. He didn’t think it was a big deal and thought that he was doing me a favour since according to him, “it wasn’t that good and he had to force himself to eat it.” That broke the camel’s back for me and when he dropped me off at the bus stop to go to work, I slammed the car door without a “goodbye” or “thank you”. The entire way to work, I was caught between feeling extremely angry at them for eating what’s not theirs (which they didn’t even appreciate) and feeling sad that the thing I was looking forward to for the next couple of days was taken away from me without my knowledge.

So, within the past three days, a pleasant dinner at a great restaurant, a comment about a game that I didn’t care for and some radish cake that I probably shouldn’t even eat while on my current diet have all caused me to feel a wave of irrational emotions ranging from deep sadness to extreme anger. I hope my period comes soon because I can’t deal with getting upset over such minor matters for much longer.