I’m Old…er
Posted in Musings on 02/05/2009 02:57 pm by Angy
I’ve been going through a quarter-life crisis recently. It began when my 16-year-old brother asked me what requirements he needed for admission into the Faculty of Science at UBC. Then, I found out that he will be learning to drive and the goal is to get his license in three months time. That’s when I knew I was getting old. I’ve always associated my brothers as being forever young but to know that one of them is approaching the age of legality made me feel like an old woman.
I should have seen it coming though. I mean, all the girls on Top Model are usually at least four years younger than me – even though they look about five years older. So, what has gotten me so frazzled about being in my mid-twenties?
I’m not entirely sure what I want to do with my life. When I was younger, I had always thought I would do something great with my life. I had a destiny and I was meant to help people, though I never figured out through what means. Now, the ideals are fading and I’m left feeling rather confused and lost about what I want.
Grad School? Research? Work? Government? Travel?
I really don’t know at this point. I can barely figure out what restaurant I want to patronize let alone what I want to do with my life. What’s the solution then? That I don’t know as well. Perhaps I’ll take Stewart’s advice and just begin to write – maybe then something will come to me even if it’s just that my writing sucks.
February 5th, 2009 at 3:39 pm
Go for it! You know how I said that it would be cool to conduct a musical? I’m going to apply to be music director of A New Brain. I think we should just go for what we want and see what happens.
February 5th, 2009 at 3:44 pm
OMG, that’s so cool! Who’s putting on “A New Brain”?
February 6th, 2009 at 9:46 am
Pipedream is putting it on! We’ll see what happens.
If I don’t get to be music director, then I’ll audition anyways!
I’ve never seen the show before, but I have the soundtrack and it sounds cute. Kristin Chenoweth was in the original cast!
February 10th, 2009 at 12:22 am
Not knowing is part of the fun
lol
Apparently with life, we’re supposed to enjoy the journey at some point… lol I dunno… it’s really rather not that simple at all.
You’ll find what you were looking for, and you’ll be doing what you love, maybe not as soon as you’d like, but you will, Eventually =)
March 9th, 2009 at 9:09 am
Keep doing what you’re doing cause you’re good at it. When these crises hit each of us, we all feel that we’re too old/ there’s not enough time/ it’s too late/ when will I do something great… I think it’s comforting knowing that you’re feeling these “crises” because you want to do something great – not simply because you’re misguided.
Because of the way we’ve been brought up, ie going through another requisite 4 years of school, that pretty much sets us back time-wise. We’re at the equivalent of high school graduates back in the day. Judy read somewhere it takes at least 10 years to hone a skill and become recognized – think of the Steve Jobs, Mark Zuckerbergs in the world… they’ve been playing with computers since they were kids!
Alrighty, can’t wait to ditch Edmonton and come hang out with you.